Lord, I am feeling more at peace with my decision.  Thank you for providing me with a friend to talk out this issue.  I can not follow those who are behind me.  I am actually excited for tomorrow morning.  To be feed, to worship, to lift this spiritual anemia that I am experiencing.  I have missed fellowship with you and a place to simply worship without judgment, guilt or explanation.  I can almost feel the strength coming back into my life.

Please help me to back away from my hurts and disappointments and let you deal with those people.  Your plan is my top priority; your plan for me and for others.  I can not try to be God or force my way to be your way.  I need to do what you desire for me and leave all of that in the dust and dirt.  You say that you will not be mocked and I trust that you are big enough to defend yourself and me.

I am grateful for your provision at this time in my life and as I look back I see you there providing so many times.  Thank you for helping the doctors to figure my situation out and maybe even “accidently” finding a treatment.  Thank you for giving me a view of a potential lifestyle that will work with any future medical complications.  This lifts my feelings of despair and worry about what may be in store for me later in life.

Thank you for all your blessings to me and my family.   Help me to get through this holiday season.